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pornotoes ::: >>>

2008-07-14T04:11:00.000-07:00

okay, this is a disturbing trends on the office that i am noting ::: more & more there are the pornotoes ::: you know? women who get the french manicure on their feet, which i guess is the french pedicure, no? ::: >>>

::: a bit strange for me ... not what i came to the show for, you know? ::: today i noticed them on Trish & it completely distracted me from helping her w/ her stray variables issues, no? ::: i will work on this, but for now it is very much a porn thing to get toes 'done' in this fashion ... to so focus on weekend proclivities for pamper & primp to the 'this little piggies' thing ::: i mean, whatever happened to keep your feet out of the kitchen, eh? ::: where's the dignity on this? ::: its like that y'alL ::: >>>

a little note for George Carlin ::: >>>

2008-06-23T05:20:00.000-07:00

veRy sad news to hear ... sad words to say or to blog too ... but George Carlin passed away last nite due to heart issues ::: aN amazingly successful stand-up comedian that truly touched my life ::: >>>

ever siNce i moved to this country ... seeing meN like George Carlin get up oN stage & pontificate oN the comedy ... bringing a sense of hilarity to the ofttiMes mundane ... opeNing our eyes to certaiN things we already soMehow have observed but not yet articulated oN quite the way that George Carlin had doNe yet ... just aN amazing inspiratioN for the world ::: >>>

oN his comedy routiNes he is best known for controversial subject matters like this '7 Dirty Words' ... & this landed him in the Supreme Court i guess according to the Wikipedia entries ... but i recalL soMe hilarious footage of hiM on the stage for the HBO talking about the difference between cats & dogs ... i definitely needed to check wipe after that oNe, no? ::: completely hilarious & w/ only a few explicatives iN there ::: >>>

:::: George Carlin always questioned the norMs of social conventioNs & iN oNe act he talked about the moMent of silence ::: completely silly commentary about a group of handicap Bolivian senior citizens that went flying off a rollercoaster & how perhaps we should have a moment of screaming ... these people just died, no? the screams are more appropriate ::: but just as mellow as his departure, a simple walk to the hospital & a heart attack good bye, perhaps it is more apt to take a little Google search & see that he will truly be missed ... we will not scream, we will not laugh or cry at his leaving this blue orb, but instead we will talk about George Carlin & praise his work here & his strange antisocial sense of humanity ... you made us laugh ... laugh at ourselves ... & at all the idiots out there in the world that make our planet a fncked up nightmare of a place ::: >>>

there is nothing left to do but laugh

thank you George

a veRy BRaDy network ::: >>>

2008-06-21T09:49:00.000-07:00

although the official release party has coMe & goNe by now, my friends ... i wanted to let you know about the new only social application 'a veRy BRaDy network' brought to you courtesy of Ning ::: here is the link to go theRe:

http://sinuscondition.ning.com/

aNyoNe caN joiN & make the profile to participate ::: there are many satisfying topics to discuss & plenty of amazing members already on board ::: so far, soMe of the iteMs up for discourse include:

was 'The Bigfoot' simply a Fluxus artist?

The Greys & The Virgin Mary

The Rock of Love { gone soft } ... and the infamous ...

Osama Bin Laden, George W Bush, Obama, Hillary Clinton, Clint Eastwood, Dick Cheney, Huckabee, Mitt Romney, Jenna Jameson and Jesus Christ walk into a Seven Eleven ...

please feel free to join us now on this hot new social media online community ::: we hope to see you online soon ::: >>>

double tax ::: >>>

2008-04-26T01:56:00.000-07:00

so now what are they up to, no? ::: i don't know about you, but i am certainly not appreciating the latest government follies on the US w/ alL this new double tax sh!zzat, if you know what i'm saying, right? ::: i mean, what's a brotha to do? ::: >>>

i understand fully the issues we currently face on the US of A ::: high crime rate, in the middle of the Iraq | Afgani quagmire, another meaningless election, television sucking very badly, food loaded w/ harmful preservatives & mind-numbing agents, obesity, baldness, tooth decay & papercuts ... these are soMe very serious issues that i cannot deny or sweep under the shag rug ::: >>>

::::::::: but ::::::::: >>>

when i got my tax results froM the block this year & saw that the rumors were true, that we are now in the 'double tax' mode, i nearly soiled my trousers twice & called me in the morning, you know? ::: what's that alL about? ::: where's Bush think he can get on w/ alL that? eh? ::: >>>

i called my congressmen ::: i wrote an angry letter to the local newspapers ::: i also took out some funds from the numerous offshore accounts i have in Guam & quickly paid them [ they're already after me for other reasons i cannot mention here, no? so why give them further excuse? ] ::: it was the easy peazie, but stilL ::: they're hitting below the belt a bit too often & it hurts, its just hurtfuL ::: & then, not on that, but this ::: >>>

restrooM observatioNs ::: >>>

2008-01-13T09:30:00.000-08:00

okay ... as disgusting as this is sound ... i just entered the restrooM here oN the office [ doin' a little overtiMe, no? ], & like ... okay, the restrooM just smells a bit like the fishsticks ::: completely makes me wince ::: i look around, nobody in here but me, you know? ::: >>>

::::::: so, what's a guy to do, right? ::: what happened on here? ::: i guess i caN understand if this odiferous end-result were oN the ladies rooM, no? you catch my draft? ::: but, er, ehm ... what is this? this fish? did soMeoNe completely blow a load oN the cold, dark tiles? from whence & where did this fragrancy derive? it certainly blows my mind, this is for sure & certain ::: >>>

i sit, i pee, i hum some song i recall from The Housemartins, do a quick checkwipe, go out & do the wash up & then leave ... but there is an air of mystery here, no? ::: Sunday ... the fishstick smells ... the men's rooM ... i imagine a quick visit froM Christ himself, just stopping by to remind us all of the loaves & the fishes ... a different take on the loaves, in this case, entirely though, no? ::: >>>

a few poeMs for you, no? ::: >>>

2008-01-09T19:30:00.000-08:00

here are soMe SiNuS BRaDy 'Stand Up | no comedy' classics ... from way, way back when one might say, no? ::: >>>

enjoy ::: >>>

February & March ... on The Jerkus Circus ::: >>>

2008-01-04T02:59:00.000-08:00

aight my dear netizens of the cybersphere ... here is the lowdown, the skinny minnie, no? ::: >>>

SiNuS BRaDy wilL be performing an installment of 'Stand Up | no comedy' on The Jerkus Circus in February and March of 2008 ::: this should be the good ::: i'm not sure, my brothers & sisters, if you are familiar with The Steamy Bohemians or not ... but ... they are a talented musical comedy duo based up in the North East quadrant of USA, performing their special blend of mayonnaise-induced song & dance ... there is just too much talent between them ::: anyhow ::: so, The Steamy Bohemians host this cabaret | variety bi-monthly [ in more way than 1, no? ] circus event showcase featuring comedy, music, raunch, poetry, funniness, burlesque, excitement and fun ::: i broke into their databanks in November of 2007 & gave them ulitmatum ... either allow me to perform or i would turn all the addresses on their mailing list over to the evil spammer Z21 [ currently residing in Malaysia, whereabouts somewhat unknown ... but we are tracking him down, no worries ] ::: well, needles to say, The Steamies gave into my cyberthreat & now i will make appearances w/ the circus ::: >>>

so ... the lowdown ::: Friday, February 15 ... i'm sure the Jerkus Circus theme will focus on love & Saint Valentine, no? ::: but this installment of The Jerkus Circus will be at Ralph's Chadwick Square Diner Rock Club in Worcester, Massachusetts ... and then on Friday, March 7 the circus rolls into Cambridgetown for an installment at The Lizard Lounge on Massachusetts Avenue [ right downstairs from the Cambridge Common ] ... & so ::: >>>

my tentative plannings go like this ::: since the theme may be somewhat love-related, i am planning on presenting a corporate training module aptly entitled 'Sexual Harrassment | Information Technologies' ... i am hoping to be joined by an assistant to assist w/ the presentation ::: the corporate goal, of course, is to bestow information to the general audience about sexual harrassment as it pertains specifically to IT in 2008 as well as the other industry professions ... so please, do not feel as though you will be dislocated if you are a sexy librarian, perhaps an extremely jacked UPS studmuffin or even a curvaceous, lactating naughty nurse in & around the Boston area ... this topic has enough harrassment to get around, no? ::: >>>

smiles everyone ... smiles ... welcome to The Jerkus Circus ::: we hope to see you there, aight? ::: >>>

some links to visit ::: The Steamy Bohemians ::: Ralph's Diner ::: The Lizard Lounge ::: hit it or quit it, aight? ::: see you there ::: >>>

2008 New Year's Resolutions ::: >>>

2007-12-31T03:46:00.000-08:00

well, well, welL ... netizens on the world ... whaddup? ::: >>>

so, 2008 is rapidly approaching ... & what have you done? this is what John Lennon would ask us all in soMe depressing androgynous Christmastime anthem, right? ::: but, it is a valid question, no? ::: i think so ::: >>>

well, i think i did as little as possible on 2007 ::: let's call it 'personal efficiency' ... aight? ::: i mean, the officeplace is very pleased w/ the work i do ... when i do it ;] ... so, don't get me wrong Mr. Silverstein ... i aims to please ::: >>>

So what's your secret?

but, for the most part, ladies & gentlemen, i performed on the bare minimum ... my gig is not one of the lower rung at that, i have to admit ... but what is strange is that, in retrospect, very little is expected of me ::: >>>

sure, sure ... you know the deal ... i spend soMe of my tiMe iN the serverroom enjoying the subarctic temperatures, adjusting this or that ... tweaking server variable archive files to help futz the numbers appropriately ... this keeps the venture capitalists dansing right along to the AiiO beat, no? ::: the old softshoe ... w/ software & technologies tip tip tappin' away on a landmine ... ah, that's the ticket, Joe ::: >>>

but, this is besides the point ::: >>>

ASP | PHP | JSP | NHL | CFML ::: >>>

my good friend Jim Schipelliti once said to me ... 'SiNuS, you've got to lose yourself in the music' ... & i said, 'Jim, this sounds like a vaguely familiar concept, no? i mean, i think i've heard this expressions before ... is it a colloquial phraseology?' & 'Skip' says, 'no, no SiNuS ... it is from a popular hip hop song ... fairly recent too ... have you heard of Eminem?' ... & i say, 'ah, yes, of course ... he's such a good Dad ... only on America, no?' ::: we both shook off a bit, tucked & zipped, flushed our prospective urinals & continued the conversation at the handsink ::: that's what friends are for, no? ::: >>>

:::::::::::: & so, my good friends ::: so ::: >>>

i think i know what i am going to do about this year ... as last year was a total blast to nithersville, you know? i mean, somewhere, somehow ... all the archived unpublished songworks of John Lennon are sitting in a chill rooM, imbued w/ the spirit of the bespectacled Beatle, disappointed in what i have done w/ 2007 ... sure, it is true, i had a moment or 2 on the open mike circuit ... discussions of 'Pink Tacos' come to mind, out at The Milky Way Lounge and Lanes ... & there was an informative session, a new installment of my seminar series about using Web 2.0 technologies to make extra cash up at The 119 Gallery in Lowell ... but besides these things, not much going on w/ SiNuS & general contributions to the world & society ::: >>>

so for this year ... i have decided to focus more on friendship ::: it is true ::: & having fun ::: fun w/ friends let's call it, no? ::: there's not alot we can do about a big evil administration [ or perhaps there is? let me know what you can do ... ] hell-bent on taking over the world ... there is little we can do about writer's strike on Hollywood & Vine ::: but, perhaps, if we are all more generous w/ our smaller circles in the big pond, if we connect w/ individuals, one-on-one ... or perhaps its a three-way, i'm not sure? perhaps then all the smaller ripples that spread out in their little visual sonarlike waves connect w/ more & more smaller ripples ... & we can destroy the establishment ;] ::: >>>

clean ball of health ::: >>>

2007-12-23T04:19:00.000-08:00

well, well, well ... long time, no bloggy blog, my friends, no? ::: >>>

what is it you are up to? ::: the holidays are a day or 2 away ::: the pressure is on ::: the jigg is up, yes? ::: & i aM contacting you dear netizens of cyberspace & tiMe to report oN a new service i recently took advantage of that is truly wonderfuL ::: >>>

you may know, you may recall, perhaps ... that lately i admit to teeth whitening addictioNs supreme ::: whitestrips 2 to 3 tiMes per day to the tune of occasional tooth & skulL pain ... brushing of the teeth w/ special whitening agents & flouridized pastes purchased on various stores ... flossing w/ hydrogen peroxide soaked strings of my own special device, invention & making ::: these are the habits, you may say, of a madman bent on whitening his own toothy smilages ::: >>>

well, here is the latest report ::: while trying to self-help my lifestyle into the new millenium & vistas ... while attempting to bring my own bad self up & closer to the design patterns of the metrosexual & stylish ... while brandishing greensleeves for diane & tracy-stacy ... i bumped across a Craigslisting to remove unwanted hairs from anywhere ... & when i say anywhere, i don't just mean Billerica ::: >>>

so, i sent a little email & asked in & about what & where the hairs & varieties they consider pulling, dillapitating, shaving, buzzing, plucking, waxing & whatnot ... what styles of removal & upkeep they provide ... how painful, or rather, what the range of pain might include ... & how much these service might set a man of IT back in dollars, pounds & rubles ::: >>>

not that expensive, i found out ::: >>>

::::::::::::::::: i dropped in ... one facility not being more than a town or 2 over from my Bedford place of employ ::: >>>

best to do these things on company time ::: go in late, leave early, work from home as they say ::: or simply set up the old cubestead w/ the appearance of being 'io' [ or 'in office' ] & then hit the skids & get out doin' what you need to be doing in the life, no? ::: >>>

i mean, no living the life of a Nancy, aight? ::: who the fark wants that, eh? ::: >>>

well, i have to say ... a little nose-hair trimmage ::: a quick & pinchy painful pluck off the ears, right off the edge [ apparently, i had these wiry little white hairs that have the life of their own ... i am guessing the whitesrippage has turned these little curlycues to the nearly dayglo crisp white ... but who knows? ] ... a bit off the shoulders & triceps ... but most importantly, a little shaving for behaving on the balls ::: its a strange sensation, to be a hairless chihuahua just underneath the john andy thompson ... every turn & twist of the legs & hip bring a subtle pleasure to psychosexual message center ::: by the end of most days i cannot see straight or gay ... i am just blind to whiteness w/ ecstacy ... & so it goes & so it comes ... or the other way around, i'm not sure anymore ::: >>>

12 bucks to the man to clean house & keep it happy all day long ::: i highly recommend this things ::: >>>

happy holidays 2007, aight? ::: >>>

Going.com | Boston's Best Stand-Up ::: >>>

2007-11-02T10:22:00.000-07:00

Going.com | Boston's Best Stand-Up ::: >>>

go here to vote for me if you can ...

::: http://boston.going.com/sinusbrady :::

could win me an opening gig at The Comedy Connection ::: >>>

spread the word ::: >>>

have a great weekend ::: >>>

tit or treat ::: >>>

2007-10-31T21:03:00.000-07:00

well ::: happy halloween to everyone out there ::: i should be mucking it up in Salem or something, no? ::: but i am back at the apartment, catching up on the reality television & handing out candies to the trick or treaters ::: >>>

big news ::: on 'Search for the Next Elvira' ::: the winner, the very next Elvira is April ::: to be completely open & honest, this is the first episode i tuned into ::: it makes complete sense that the culminating episode of tit or treat occurs on this very haunted evening ::: seems like it was a fun show to tune into ::: noone trying to save the world or anything grand ::: just goth & bosoms ... horror & hypnotizing cleavage ::: >>>

of course there is the myspace page for Elvira & her little reality show ::: i think it's funny that the band is called something like 'The Last Danse' or something ::: i personally like the candellabra ... all the black & red & bad lighting from the original show ::: the commentary very tongue & cheek as he says ::: >>>

:::::::::: oh, well i must go ... there is the doorbell now ::: i have a few flights to descend with my bowl of tropical dots & baby ruths ::: might just take one of those bad boys myself now, no? ::: >>>

have the frightful night now, ya hear? ::: >>>

shhh ::: >>>

2007-10-23T18:54:00.000-07:00

i finally got the development crew to get their ass oN motioN & add the first entry to the 'secret' site ... here it is :

http://www.sowhatsyoursecret.com

anyone with secret can submit to the secret server & then within the next batch of random months the secret will anonymously be added on the list, yes? ::: yes ::: >>>

so go to it ::: let me know your secret ::: >>>

::: ::: ::::::::::: : ::::::: :::: SiNuS says ::: :::::: ::: >>>

web 2.0 or not web 2.0? ::: >>>

2007-10-16T18:58:00.001-07:00

this is the questioN to ask right now i would think ::: >>>

in the late nineties up until the year 2000 there were prosperous times indeed for alL companies driving like the madman up the information superhighway ::: before the big bandwidth — & before the sudden need for many a venture capitalist or catalyst organization to require the business plan — many netizens were brainstorMing into the nite & putting up this site or that site ::: this was the days before the bubble burst, no? ::: the outrages fortunes of the web 1.0 ::: >>>

entering upoN the year 2000 — things began to falL apart ::: suddenly the concept of profitability came back into play & several of the companies that might not have been playing at the party with the fulL decks dropped to the wayside, no? ::: goNe goNe goNe ::: into the ethernet [ or ether that is ] ::: >>>

& now, my friends — netizens of the world wide web — masters of the new reality series — now we have what has beeN labelled 'web 2.0' ::: soMethiNg bigger & better perhaps? ::: soMethiNg that wilL turN a profit & make us alL a little richer? ::: hmmMMMmMM? hmmmMMmmMMMmmmmMMmmm? ::: >>>

moRe to be discussed is to follow or preceed — depending on which order you coMe acroSs theSe bloggiNgs iN ::: >>>

::: visit the officiaL SiNuS BRaDy website :::

rainyday columbus on Bostontown ::: >>>

2007-10-08T09:19:00.000-07:00

& so it is & so it was another rainyday columbus on Bostontown ... no music in the air ... just dust, rust & tears on the pavement smeared like bugguts across the concrete windshield of life ...

i am on the office ... on the office again yes ... in the serverroom, hidden, quiet & cold ... tucked away like the carcass of some animal in the butchershop of corporate deism ... hung like a bat in its diurnal, cozy sleep ... swaying like the ghost of a pendulum with just sockets for eyeholes, chains across each wrist ...

that's the sound of a vacant soul ... a soulless cityscape ...

back to work for me now ... yes?

Marcel Marceaux ::: >>>

2007-09-26T03:33:00.000-07:00

i would like us to all pause for a moment of silence to honor the life and death of Marcel Marceau ::: >>>

jell-o jesus ::: >>>

2007-07-23T09:25:00.000-07:00

heard on news over the weekend that a woman made some jell-o in a frying pan ... after the jell-o cooled, an apparition of Jesus Christ appeared right in the jell-o ::: >>>

what does this mean for our times? is this like the burning bush? & who in the world makes jell-o in a frying pan? ::: >>>

vonnegut 1992 - 2007 ::: >>>

2007-04-13T13:03:00.000-07:00

ok ::: listen ::: sad but true, i heard that Kurt Vonnegut is no longer with us ::: beside reading his many novelistic contributions to the greater universe & beyond ... i also felt very much in tune w/ his pessimistic disapproval of the state of the world, a world that hasn't seemed to change much in matters of violence, war, destruction & the general surrealistic advancement of society ::: >>>

strange to me that the death of one of america's most imaginative novelists would be overshadowed by the Don 'nappy headed' Imus incident that is getting oh so much exposure ::: sad that such a popular radio host said a few stupid things, typical comments of the shock jockery going on — but should it surprise any of us here in the US? after the Springerfication of the televised world not so long ago, it seems that trash talk & negativity ofttimes get the most attentioN ::: i am personally not a fan of Imus ... i cannot usually understand hiM, something about the gravelly timbre of his voice & the general 'good old boy' notions stirring up oN the station there tend to turN my ears oN elsewhere ::: anyhow — its everywhere oN the news & in the media, moreso thaN global warming or microbial pooling ::: Imus Imus Imus ::: Imus therefore i am ::: Imus increase my bust ::: Imus get back to the more important topic, no? yes, yes ::: >>>

Kurt Vonnegut ::: mixing science fiction, autobiography, satire & a truly thought-provoking cynicism — Cat's Cradle, Slaughterhouse Five, Player Piano, The Sirens of Titan — all novels that utilize humor to help elevate the spirit up, out from the horror conducted on a daily basis ::: a unique style, readily accesible, down-to-earth, fantastic ::: your life & work live on to warn us, warm us & inspire ::: >>>

immigration commentary ::: >>>

2007-03-15T05:10:00.000-07:00

soon we will need a special set of immigration laws that cater specifically to the brangelina adoption menagerie ::: >>>

restrooM reflectioNs ::: >>>

2007-03-09T23:08:00.000-08:00

so, today, on the office [ not the tv show, the real office ] ::: i had to do my daily business if you know what i mean ::: i stepped out of my humble cubed abode to take a little scenic trip to the downstairs mensroom facilities as i did not want to upset the balance of my floor or reveal any inspirational food consumptive patterns to my corporate coworkers ::: >>>

i was lucky enough to score for myself the king's chamber ::: lots of breathing room, the ability to really stretch & relax & catch up w/ the proliferation of daily readings people print off & leave for such restroom lactivities ::: just when i am getting a bit comfortable & in the mood, i hear the facility door swing open & close, the click clack click of business shoes on tile, the swing open & close of the neighboring stall door & the nearly imperceptable turn of the stalldoor lock ::: a zip & drop of the pants & the man in the next stall is now attending to his own personal business ... a bit awkward i must say ::: >>>

well, there is only so many commentary on the recent sporting news one can take [ perfect reading to inspire the push ] ::: the strange part now is that i can see my neighbors shoes, pants bunched up around his ankles, i can hear the shuffle of printed daily news from his stall ::: >>>

he has the same exact pair of shoes i do ::: mine seem a little older though by comparison ::: i wonder if he got a better deal ::: he moves a bit & then, there it is ... a strange whalesound ... i assume the man is just downright talented on this things ::: i mean, i can make my own specialties if you know what i mean, but whalesongs are over the top ::: >>>

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operation enduring email UPdate ::: >>>

2007-02-05T11:05:00.000-08:00

we have just discovered that a number of spam emails have come from within the building ... OEE is working to investigate the matter at hand, whether the evil spammer is a double agent of Z21 or if perhaps this is a rogue spammer, working to infiltrate Operation Enduring Email to give us the bad name

stay tuned for more UPdates from OEE regarding this urgent matters

ASP | PHP | JSP | NHL | CFML ::: >>>

turtleneck ::: >>>

2007-01-19T13:22:00.001-08:00

i am wearing your turtleneck
like a bohemian skipping in a field
i feel your body imprinted
fabric sealed with perspiration
i can smell your skin & hair
you are memories now
memories now

a green grape ::: >>>

2007-01-19T13:21:00.001-08:00

today on the workplace ... a strange vision in the men's room ::: >>>

i went in ... did my 'business' as we say, yes? ::: i tend to sit, even when urinating ... less mess, more time to just take in the environment, read any computer print-offs of the day's news as deemed important by coworkers [ typically loser sports items, sometimes something a little too republican, othertimes some rather snooze-inducing local fodder ] ... so, i sit for a bit, empty the old bladder ... & exit the stall ::: >>>

the new office restroom has a luxurious 5-person mirror ... very HD if you catch my draft ... & so i stand, give a few pumps of the pink liquid handsoap & ... what do i spy? on the bottom of sink #3 [ this is the one i am currenlty using to wash hands ]? yes, that's right, a single green grape ... comfortable, sitting on the drain filter thing, pink suds washing away around this near-translucent morsel of office snackage ... you would think i would grab that little b!tch up & pop it in for a sweet treat ... but no ... i watch as the handsoap thins out & turns to purer & purer waterFlow ... the little green grape ... another magic intrusion of nature in the officeplace ::: >>>

was this green grape perhaps left here for a reason? ::: i wonder ::: >>>

Crank Sturgeon + Friends { inRetroSpection }

2006-12-27T09:52:00.000-08:00

so ... we all know or can recall upon a gander down the page what was in fact the Crank Sturgeon performance showcase at The 119 Gallery in Lowell ... here is a pleasant reminder for you ...

SiNuS BRaDy | sinusbrady.com
Pine Tree State Mind Control | ptsmc.org
Id m Theft Able | kraag.org/id/
Crank Sturgeon | cranksturgeon.com

... and so ... i went on first but not foremost ... i believe the presentation went well ... although some video footage set-up was arranged and recorded, no documentation of this rare 'siting' of SiNuS BRaDy was salvaged ... unfortunately a group of spammers, enraged by the progress of Operation Enduring Email, broke into my humble abode and destroyed much of the digital video archive ... beyond that, i feel that i was successfully able to convey many valuable strategies for the use of Web 2.0 technologies to help build a more financially stable future ... although nobody friended me, and i received no additions to the official SiNuS BRaDy mailing notification list, the general vibe upon the audience was warm and inviting ... and i left with good feeling inside ...

Pine Tree State Mind Control also delivered valuable corporate messaging, helping people understand the value of 'feeling' free ... positive message music for the people ... a good take and an inspiring talk ...

Id m Theft Able delivered the most organic & visually interesting instantaneous foley scuplture session i have ever witnessed ... at one point i recall Id m standing at the back of the room within the light of a giant Ronald McDonald projection, arms outspread like a performance art christFigure ... lots of truly precious moments that seemed to capture the heart and soul of a living woodland creature surviving on the scraps of a nearAudible suburban takeOver ... Walter Wright's live delayed capture of ImTA added a sort of neverEnding infinite surreality to the set

and Crank Sturgeon ... i am not sure that words can capture what Crank brought to the stage, nor should they ... Crank presented a celebration of fishy manhood in 4 acts, one of which included a special ceiling-projected storyBox offering ... his vocalities seemed to usher forth from an innerRealm exhumed from a nearDickensish pastLife ... his jaunty postures & continual frenetic energy and interactivity provoked a nervous happiness & much laughter from the willing & able audience ... his use of leaves, water, cocaine, contact microphones and tall rubber boots just made complete sense and helped spray the audience w/ his prophetic Sturgeon tactics ...

overall ... a mind-bending night of enjoyment, not 'for the whole family', but definitely worthy of thought, conversation and perhaps a bonghit or 2 ::: >>>

Crank Sturgeon and Friends

2006-11-05T17:16:00.000-08:00

Check out this event: Crank Sturgeon and Friends
http://upcoming.org/event/107250/

Crank Sturgeon and Friends

Sat Nov 11 8pm all ages $5
Performance art at it's very best!

Featuring :
SiNuS BRaDy | sinusbrady.com
Pine Tree State Mind Control | ptsmc.org
Id m Theft Able | kraag.org/id/
Crank Sturgeon | cranksturgeon.com

This show will rot your mind, induce convulsions, and then render you comatose. Bring protective gear.

When: Saturday Nov 11, 2006 at 7:30 PM
Cover: $5 | All ages [some adult themes]
Where: The 119 Gallery
119 Chelmsford Street
Lowell, MA 01851
978 452 8138

new items on Cafe Press

2006-11-05T17:15:00.000-08:00

aight ... check it out y'all ... more items up for the grabs on Cafe Press dot com ...

http://www.cafepress.com/sinusbrady

Hello Jim Schipelliti

2006-09-29T04:49:00.000-07:00

Hello Jim Schipelliti!

Long time, no see ...

I thought I would update you on my current status and hopefully we can catch up a bit sometime soon, no?

Well, my work with AiiO is just about over. My 10 year + stint with this VOS supplier, now currently winding down out of their dot-bombination, is finally almost kaput. I am on the good terms with many of the investors, upper management team members and the board ... so I may be involved in another start-up or 2 if the market doesn't immediately offer me an extremely high paying position that utilizes at least a thimblefull of my talents. I will not accept just anything, though ... so keep this on mind, ok?

Here is what I am currently looking for Jim :

A fast-paced working environment in the Woburn area and beyond that might need Flash Action Script
Programmer to work on applications or sites for the web. I like to work with Video On Demand
(VOD), if this is possible, incorporating Flash Action Script 2.0, programming (90% of what I do is through Actionscripting), coding, developing new applications, some light design.
I prefer to interact with engineers along with content/production people (small group).
The position should allow for plenty of flex-time and encourage creative thought and problem solving.

My Qualifications:

Flash Action Script 2.0
4 yrs Programming/Development
Proficient with all facets of Flash MX2004 and/or Flash 8
Flash Video (FLV), Flash Video Encoding and Flash Media Server2 (bonus)
Javascript
Working knowledge of XML
VOD Interactive TV/web
Hand Help/Internet
Behavior Modification
Dynamic Interactive VLog Technology Implementation with Database Back-end Ramifications
HyperCard 4.0
TiT Permutative Development Skills
Neuropathological Brainwave Scan Technologies
Dynamic Self-Actualization Processes

My Other helpful experience:

C++ (other script languages)
HTML/DHTML
Graphic Design and Development
Database Driven Applications
ASP | PHP | JSP | NHL | CFML

I am only available to talk on Tuesdays as my current schedule is rather intense. I hope this would work for you for a further discussion on what I may be able to provide for one of your client companies | affiliates. My availability via email, however, is much better if you would prefer to converse further about potential opportunities through Eliassen.

Have a great weekend. I look forward to hearing from you.

Sinus

:: [ S i N u S B R a D y ] ::
:: software engineer | database administrator | poet | behavior research scientist
:: sb@sinusbrady.com

:: you are being watched ::

Don't be left out, join millions of men in the revolution ---shale extracts ---

2006-09-26T03:40:00.000-07:00

Hello!
midway francisco university
cowed unscrewing seen
inconceivable robber hester
coaches orator vote
intenveaving politeness precipitates
dangerously gin instrument
provoke instrumental comparison
abdications cavernous positively
rote undisputed phenomenon
archings satisfactory recep
blackened swam rejected
faster soldiers inverted

http://upcoming.org/event/107248/
http://upcoming.org/event/107250/

what's goin' on in there? ::: >>>

2006-09-12T21:15:00.000-07:00

ok ... just went into the men's room at work ... & somebody in the veRy first stalL is making a rather steamy beef stew concoction, no? ::: just a bit much for a workplace output if you catch my draft ::: he should have waited for the old homestead to let fly the fecundities ... or ... traveled on over to the Barnes & Noble for a lunchbreak excommunication of any papalitiesSupreme ... these are just my opinioNs though, no? ::: >>>

deep anger ::: >>>

2006-09-08T06:13:00.000-07:00

ia snova kivnul, pokazyvaia, chto informaciiu prinial, zatem My zamolchali oba, zavorozhenno nabliudaia za izmeneniiami v kolodce. Raschet okazalsia tochen, i oshchushchenie zatuhaiushchej zhizni zveria ulavlivaetsia moej auroj Kak slabeiushchee teplo solnechnogo zakata ::: na pervyj vzgliad sedlo kazalos dostatochno udobnym dlia chelovecheskogo Sedalishcha i prosto izobilovalo kozhanymi petliami, k kotorym udobno priviazyvat Raznye prichindaly. Vse ravno ona svoego dobetsia, kak by On ni brykalsia. Zasfernik vdrug prevratilsia vo chto-to neperedavaemo zhutkoe, Nechelovecheskoe. I tak uzhe Proishodilo. Gde-nibud za gorodom ostanovlius, Pokormliu. Cilindr chuzhogo ne byl pomehoj sheptunam. Zahripev ot zlosti, ne v silah dazhe vyrugatsia, ia Otshvyrnul izluchatel v storonu. Ia ne liubliu, kogda mne diktuiut usloviia Terpet ne mogu ogranicheniia svoej Svobody ::: >>>

it just really is starting to p!Ss me off ::: >>>

i have to get out of here ::: >>>

2006-09-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

i have to ::: get out ::: ... ::: of here ::: ... i have to leave ::: i think i ::: ... ::: i think i am :::
... ::: being followed again ::: ... ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

that strange strange man ::: ... ::: he was in the company courtyard again at lunch ::: ...
::: at lunchtime ::: ... behind the tree ::: ... talking on ::: ... talking on his cell again ::: ...
::: i am certain he is following me ::: ... ::: ... he is omnipitous in this matters :::::::::::::::
::: ... that strange strange bastard ... ::: ... ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: !i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i

i have to leave ::: i must ::: i have to ... ::: i have to ::: ... leave ::: ... to get out of here ...

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suspicioN ::: >>>

2006-09-05T06:13:00.002-07:00

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very suspicious things are going on again ::: >>>

you have to continue to be strong : they want you to give in : a boring day : the day to day : i am on the line : on computer : on the monitor : my eyes dry & failing : i feel a bit anxious at times ::: always being followed ::: followed ::: stalked ::: watched ::: i know he is watching me ::: >>>

it is a strange predicament i find myself in i know : they have the cookies : they have this snooping software : to keep track of my keyboard strokes : it is a time-driven world : each click click click of the second hand is ::: is ::: another second ::: another click : this is the day : these are the days !i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i!i & then there is the mouseclick the mouseclick : each mouseclick being recorded ::: >>>

i must use the bathroom now >>>

untitled thoughtstreaM #403

2006-09-05T06:13:00.001-07:00

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i feel completely disjointed again : disconnected to everything to everyone : completely floating & invisible : unimportant : but not in a liberating way : its a sort of blind & nebulous suffocation : dyslexia : carcinogenic drowning of the soul : this is what i am talking about : complete negation : absolute absence : neglect : worry : anxiety : blah : blah : blah : screwed up : twisted : paralyzed : these are days i do despise : i cannot stand to live thru moments like these & swear in mumbles under my breathe : i curse myself continually : pray for my negation : for my death : for the end ::: >>>

i cannot take it :

i cannot stand it :

i will not settle for a feeling such as this :

this is not :

not what i deserve :

not how i should live :

i am tired : weary of this existence :

everyday in a box :

every hour inside my shell : inside w/o light : w/o warmth : w/o happiness : w/o hope : w/o reason : w/o want : w/o desire : w/o sense : w/o thought : w/o feet : w/o eyes : w/o hands : w/o ass : w/o arms : w/o torso : w/o head : w/o ears : then : w/o mouth : w/o vision : w/o legs : w/o neck : w/o shoulders ::: >>>

i hate these day :

such a long dreary time : a waste : negative fog : condensed milk : free-form seafoam : paper cup : styrofoam eyelids : metal shoes : fleece jacket : ache in my heart : pain in my head : tears in my eye :

i don't know why i come here :::

i don't know why i bother day after day after day :::

no love no hope no poison :

no reason

no reason

he is close to getting me ::: >>>

2006-09-05T06:04:00.000-07:00

mysterious call today at work : i was leaving a bit early today : around 1:14 or so : i get a phonecall : a few rings : i pick it up : 'hello' i say : a bit mellow : a pinch of disdain : & then : no answer on the other end : i can hear the ambience of an officespace on the other end of the line : some voices : some clicking : a far away silence : no breathing : but : some very nondescript & typical muffled discussion : 'hello' i say : 'hello' : no answer : i wait : i give them the silent treatment myself for a while : at approximately 1:47 i hang up : shut down my system : & leave to go home for the day ::: >>>

the returN of 5head ::: >>>

2003-07-09T06:40:00.000-07:00

this week has beeN like the veritable ghosttowN oN the corporate workplace ::: barely a souL left in the office — & those little troopers who grace our space with their presence aRe indeed like the living dead of soMe sort ::: but — this is beside the points ::: >>>

i am stunned this morning to find oN my morningtiMe commute to the workplace my inimitable anti-friend & stalkerpaL — noNe other than the the 5head iN alL his stalker-like glory — sitting at the café table — casually glancing oveR as i patiently wait oN the liNe — watching — waiting — a reaL paiN oN the asS ::: >>>

today though is a bit different thaN the otheR days of his creepy near-sinus presence ::: he watches & stares ::: but alL the tiMe he is also talking with soMeoNe who is sitting at a comfortable beateN up loveseat ::: aS i aM iN the queue i cannot decipher the approximity of the 5head's new companioN — but it appears that their conversatioNs aRe happy oNes — as the 5head occasionally chuckles & theN leans iN to tap the new stranger w/ a manly snap of the fingertips oN the upper silhouette of an invisible shoulder hidden behind the puffy little seat ::: >>>

it's alL too much fuN for our little cromagnoN w/ the recording studio stylings — every oNce oN the while he smiles a bit while looking off to the ceiling [ but i know he is spying me through his peripheral visioNs ] — every once iN a while he leaNs forward & stares at the flooR while muttering soMething [ he wishes he could smoke i bet i bet he does yes i do | uh — but don't forget the baN ] — he soMetiMes picks at his left thumbnaiL w/ his right pointer finger — he needs a haircut badly [ how unlike the 5head ] — he is a jesus-loving freak w/ his sandals & woven anklet w/ little cutesy beads [ this is a new additioN to the rockstar fashioN statement wardrobe of his ] ::: >>>

i finally purchase my coffee froM the kindly womaN behind the counter [ complete w/ a dope gold-tooth smiLe & a neck-curled tattoo ] ::: i go tot he mixing statioN ::: although the 5head remaiNs cooL & casuaL — seemingly not looking directly at me — i feeL his eyes oN my every move [ & my heart races ] ::: >>>

after adding the half & half — about 7 sugars — & the coffee cover lid — i turn to move toward the exit door ::: w/ my suspicious strides to release myself to the outer world [ almost a free man agaiN ] i slyly take a gander at the loveseated stranger & aM completely horrified & surprised to find that it is none other thaN none other thaN mar von janko ::: >>>